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There always seems to be people in my apartment...but they never get here untill late. I leave to bring Mike back to his car and when I come back...poof! There is magickally like 6 more people then when I left. The thing is, I really don't know any of these people and I don't think anyone living here really knows them too well either. They showed up with a semi-friend (yes, I think I did just invent a term...) and they just kept on coming. They are straight, loud, rowdy, and tend to be just downright obnoxious at times. We (Me, Lauren, and James) have taken to hiding to our rooms. Somone come and give me my salvation! Oh the loudness!!!!
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[12 Oct 2004|11:26pm] |
You are Form 0, Phoenix: The Eternal.
"And The Phoenix's cycle had reached
zenith, so he consumed himself in fire. He
emerged from his own ashes, to be forever
immortal."
Some examples of the Phoenix Form are Quetzalcoatl
(Aztec), Shiva (Indian), and Ra-Atum
(Egyptian).
The Phoenix is associated with the concept of life,
the number 0, and the element of fire.
His sign is the eclipsed sun.
As a member of Form 0, you are a determined
individual. You tend to keep your sense of
optomism, even through tough times and have a
positive outlook on most situations. You have
a way of looking at going through life as a
journey that you can constantly learn from.
Phoenixes are the best friends to have because
they cheer people up easily.
Which Mythological Form Are You?
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[12 Oct 2004|11:07pm] |
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I know this is going to sound strange, but I've never felt so alone before. More then anything else in the world I want to be with my Michael, but I cannot and I feel unbearably helpless. Even though he just left almost three hours ago, I feel so without him. But...that's just it...he left three hours ago, at 11:30. I feel like we are spending less and less time together and I fear we are drifting so far apart. And you know when he left tonight? Right in the middle of sex. He literally just stopped and said he had to go. Yes, I knew he wanted to leave at 11:30 before we started, but I guess I didn't think anything of it. He has never left that early before, and I guess I just figured once we started he would at least wait until we were done. But...no. I guess doing it for the first time in a week wasn't special enough. Whatever. I hate this. All I want is him, to be with him right now. I know some of you reading this may think it is bad, but he is all that matters to me. Mike comes first and is my number one priority. He is more important to me then anything in the world. I have no family, I talk to very few friends now. He is pretty much holding me together and keeping me from having a total breakdown. I suppose I'm just so upset because to him I seem to just be second best, upset because he always puts other things before me....
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| Long time, no post.... |
[01 Oct 2004|04:33pm] |
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So, I have not made a post in my LJ in so very long it's upsetting. I just haven't gotten much of a chance to. Seeing how much I love this thing, that is a real bummer. However, I have been busy with school, work, and my Micheal.
School has been going as well as it could I suppose. I am beginning to be a lil afraid of things to come though. I have yet to do anything that could get me a grade as of yet. Nothing. I have not had to do anything other then write a few journals, but they don't count for much of a grade. This means that my grades for the semester will rest on a few things, so I can't mess up. I have also been bad with going to class, but whatever.
Things with Mike have been going good as well. There was an added stress on our relationship when I came to school, and we fought over stupid things. We managed to talk about what was wrong and things kinda settled into what little routine they could, and everything is so much better now. I'm happy for that, because I love my Micheal very much and I don't know what I could've done without him. I'd be lost if I ever lost him.
I'm still working at the Vernon Inn. I waiter every Saturday and Sunday. It would be better if I had a Job I could work more days, but by working weekends I can go home and see Mike and I still get to see my mother on occasion, where I would not get to otherwise.
Well, I suppose that will be all for now. I have to start writing in my journal more, because I miss it. Untill next time.
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[01 Oct 2004|04:21am] |
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Free Ipods!
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[03 Sep 2004|05:22pm] |
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A Random thought for you:
I have recently realized that I seem to like taking care of people. I have always paid for people when we went out, like for Christin or for Becky...Becky I got everything for, and never thought anything of it. Now, with Mike, it's even more so. I am always cooking for him, I buy him things, and I try to do as much for him as possible. I feel better and happier this way. That is why it sucks for me not to have money. I hate money, and I hate that I need it, but spending it, especially on people that I am close to, that I love, makes me feel more comfortable. Wow, I just realized were this may lead some of you! NO! I will not buy any of you anything! My resources are all saved for someone more special to me then anything else, and he is my Michael.
On a side note, I've started school again. I'm living in the village in an apartment with James Lauren and Gia. I hope everything goes ok between everyone this semester. More on that situation to come. for now, I am leaving for the weekend to go see my baby! TTFN!
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| Happy Mother's Day |
[09 May 2004|06:50pm] |
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So, I went home this weekend. I worked on saturday night (dishwashing, gag me!(without the second dishwasher to help me)) and then stayed the night at home to go out to dinner today with family members. Let's just say that my family is a bit crazy sometimes. My Mother started a spitball fight that lasted almost the entire time that we were there (it was fun) and my grandmother asked the waitress to bring her some spoons so that she could hang them off her nose. It was a hoot. Just picture a table of 13 people with spit balls flying all around us and little old ladies hanging spoons off of their noses. It's a wonder we weren't kicked out. Actually, the waitress loved us and told us to come back again sometime. It was hilarious.
Except for the whole father thing. I felt like a refuee in my own house, and I didn't like that. He had requested that my mother keep me as far away from him as possible. Apparently now he doesn't like me because in 8th grade I wrote to a girlfriend and told her how I hated my father and always had. Strange, I don't remember this happening. Not that it's something that I might not have done, it's entirely possible, but I don't remember doing it. Gee, maybe that is because it was almost eight years ago!!! If he's going to act so childish over something that happened eight years ago, then fuck him! I'm done trying. I do believe that it's exactly this type of behavior that makes people hate you in the first place. But...do correct me if I'm wrong, please.
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[30 Apr 2004|01:17am] |
"Look guys, it's ketchup, not salad dressing!"
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[22 Apr 2004|07:29pm] |
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I was outside at the world(s?) fair today for about 2 hours...maybe more, and now I am a bit tan. I have tan lines! That means that summer is almost here. ...I just dunno how I feel about this. Oh, I have funny pix from the fair (which was alot of fun) that I might post up here sometime.
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[19 Apr 2004|01:13pm] |
Congratulations, John!
Your IQ score is 120
This number is based on a scientific formula that compares how many questions you answered correctly on the Classic IQ Test relative to others.
Your Intellectual Type is Word Warrior. This means you have exceptional verbal skills. You can easily make sense of complex issues and take an unusually creative approach to solving problems. Your strengths also make you a visionary. Even without trying you're able to come up with lots of new and creative ideas. And that's just a small part of what we know about you from your test results.
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